“Doesn’t your blog have rooms for self expressions, personal thoughts or intellectual stuffs other than food and blogging?”

Actually, I used to blog about my emotions and personal thoughts every once in a blue moon. However, I, sort of, completely stopped expressing myself and be more cautious about what I write in my blog due to a number of reasons.

My sisters, cousins, aunties, uncles and most importantly, my parents are reading my blog. Yes, my parents are reading my blog. No, it is not as cool as you thought, probably only half as cool. While I am partially cool with them reading my blog, it is not cool when my parents used the stuffs that I blogged about against me. They don’t do that anymore though, probably they have accepted what blogging is all about. Still, my relatives are reading my blog and up till certain extend, it’s not that comfortable.

Secondly, I don’t really like the idea of exposing my inner self too much, in public. While I do tell my stuffs to my good old buddies or certain specific people on my MSN, I feel insecure exposing my emotions to every Tom, Dick, Harry or any other random readers I have. I do appreciate all the readers I have (Yes, you!), but I can only expose myself that much and anything more than that, it requires more than just reading my blog. The fact that I always like to keep things to myself first doesn’t help too.

Relationships between my parents and I lean more towards the bad side. I barely tell them my stuffs unless the need arises or my parents ask about it. This “unhealthy” relationship started and remained as long as I can remember and even until today, it’s still going on. Although at one point, it looked and felt better. Referring to the above two points, I try not to blog about my private stuffs or even if I do, I will password protect it. Whenever I password protect a post, there are a lot of “work” needed to be done and to make my life easier, I choose not to blog about it. Hence, no personal thoughts or private matters in my blog.

Being a pretty long winded person, blogging about intellectual stuffs that requires elaborations is probably not a very good idea too. Already people are skipping the text part and glancing at the pictures, I doubt people would be reading my 1000 words and text-only post. I am not the kind of bloggers who can express very well with words on specific issues like a few notable bloggers out there. We have such bloggers who are doing way better than me, an average Joe.

As for general or current issues, not that I do not care, I just don’t like to blog what 239487512 bloggers out there are blogging about, be it to express their views, gain traffic and / or attract search engines’ spider bots. I do know what’s going on with the country, be it from the mainstream medias or alternative medias. It’s just not my kind of blogging material and also, refer to the previous point.

So, that’s why you hardly see me writing text-only, emotions, personal thoughts or intellectual stuffs on my blog.

If you read until here, give yourself a pat on the back. And thank you, for reading all.

Stumbled upon this at one’s blog. I smiled a little, and then ended up smirking. Me and my sarcasm.

暧昧不是爱情。
暧昧是，比好朋友再亲，但比情人远一点。
暧昧是，我会常常在MSN等你上线。 当你几天没有上线，我就会有些担心。
暧昧是，我会不时去你的blog看看有没有更新； 而且我会留意字里行间，你对我有没有什么暗示。
暧昧是，有感觉，然而，这种感觉不足以叫我们切切实实地发展一段正式的关系。
暧昧是，明白人生有太多的无奈，现实有太多的限制。 我知道没有可能，但又舍不得放手。
暧昧是，有进一步的冲动，却没有进一步的勇气。
暧昧是，你不是我的情人，但似乎你比我的情人更关心我和了解我。
暧昧是，我会编一条围巾给你，但大家从没有开始过。
暧昧是，我感冒时有一个会在晚上打电话来，特意提醒我服药，叫我盖好被子早点睡的普通朋友。
暧昧是，每当你提及你的另一半时，我会万剑穿心。
暧昧是，甜津津又同时酸溜溜的。 往往从未开始，已叫人不安，患得患失。
暧昧是，别人以为我们在搞地下情时，我会沾沾自喜。
暧昧是，别人问我们是否恋爱中，我张口结舌，不知道怎么回答。
暧昧是，常常挣扎不表白。 我怕表白之后，我既得不到一个情人，却又失去了一个知心好友。
暧昧是，见到你，我会心跳。 见不到你时，我会挂念你。
暧昧是，两个人都会互相猜想。 你是不是已经暗示了什么？ 我是不是自作多情？
暧昧是，会互传手机短讯，无规律地偶然约会。
暧昧是，除了情人节之外，其他的节日，大家都交换礼物。
暧昧是，我很想多走一步，但又怕会吓怕了你。 我会很小心流露自己的感情。
暧昧是，两个人没有承诺过什么。 但虽然如此，我愿意付出的，比有承诺的情侣更多。
暧昧是，是一扇门，我可以停留在门外，也可以踏进房子里面。
我们的“暧昧”，我们却不属于对方…

P/S : I wanted to translate, like I always do with my Mandarin posts, but figure it doesn’t make any sense after the translation. 暧昧, I suppose, is intimacy.

Out.

Out of here.

I really need to get out from my room and current situation for a while, to recharge myself and give myself a break.

My last holiday trip was my June 2007 Bali trip and just when I had enough money to do another round of traveling, I was robbed and ended up in a rather big debt. On top of that, seeing my two buddies traveling to Vietnam, Chiang Mai, Bangkok and Phuket makes me more jealous; and Cuti-Cuti Malaysia doesn’t sound enticing to them.

Sighs.

A year has passed, but it still hurts.

Writing or blogging about food isn’t as easy as you think, there are unavoidable and hidden pressures whenever I pen down my eating experience in an eatery. Every now and then, I would receive negative and disapproving comments about the eatery that I have recommended in my blog. For that, I feel bad and guilty for the person, even more if the meal cost quite a bit for the person. Now, how should I react to that?

I love to eat, there’s no doubt about that, but my tongue isn’t sharp when it comes to taste. There’s much more to learn in this field and I’m still working on it. I don’t have much expectations when it comes to food as long as it opens up my appetite and I get to enjoy that particular meal, I am a happy man. I then write about the food and share some pictures of the eatery and food in my blog. In the form of a simple sentence, I present the good points about the place, not the bad ones. I am more of a food reviewer, than a food critic.

A food critic, on the other hand, has a sharp sense when it comes to taste, flavour and texture. Even the slightest and most discreet taste, they should be able to pin point it and describe it to you using their words. They show no mercy when it comes to ratings and reviews about the eatery, and by right, should be brutally honest and present nothing but the truth as well.

A good food critic that I personally know of is April Yim. She’s a girl that is even able to tell the difference between the Mille Crepe made by Amos and Nozomi, despite she hasn’t tried the one Amos made. She’s even able to differentiate the local and imported chocolate rice / sprinkle, like hell, I know the difference even after she tried explaining it to me.

Again, I am a food reviewer.

Not that I want to drop all the responsibility and guilt off my shoulder by writing this post, I just want to make sure that I have tried my best to present what are presentable. I hardly write negative points about an eatery if its avoidable and present the good side. I had a bad experience when I wrote an honest review about an eatery in Malacca and the boss of that particular restaurant, being a sour puss, bad mouthed me among my media friends and acquaintances. It wasn’t a pleasant experience. It’s better to build a good customer and boss relationship rather than being mean and honest.

I always feel pressured especially when I am bringing my family members to the eateries that I went or tried. The pressure is big and cold sweat will be trickling down my forehead or spine, theoretically. Whenever my aunt (Hwey’s and Deng’s mum) asked me whether is it that good or requested me to bring her there to try the food, I flash my worth-only-a-dollar smile. I am pretty sure she’s quite a picky eater. Heh!

Maybe I should put a disclaimer like Boo_licious (masak-masak.blogspot.com) but I don’t think its necessary, right? I hope. Well, whatever you read on my blog and hope to try in near future, do remember that it could be damn good or damn bad; However, if I say its bad, rest assured that most likely it will be bad. Ha!

One man’s meat is another man’s poison.

Cheers.