Drained Emotions
Emotionally drained.
It’s just too much to handle as everything happened in a sudden and everything came tumbling down since then. Everything, as in, everything that matters to me the most. Worst of all, I found it the hard way, again. This time, it came with something even more disturbing, betrayal. It’s not helping when its “the time” of the year and everything I see just reminds me of well, everything.
Thoughts, spoken.
Tears, shed.
Arguments, rose.
Words, written.
Tears, shed.
It’s not helping either when deep down inside myself, I knew it was me who started “it” from the very beginning that caused today’s consequences. Although it’s not just my responsibility alone, that’s for sure, there’s more need to be done from every aspect to mend things up.
It’s not going to be easy but “no choices” is what we are left with.
Promises that need to be kept and uphold.
Promises that you won’t know whether it will be kept and upholded by the other person.
It could be just another round of self defusing or one sided thing.
Sighs.
Whatever.
Never know I was that vulnerable and weak.
If it gets too serious, I am going to shut down “Jason Mumbles”. Yes, this freaking blog and no, you didn’t read wrongly.
Emotionally drained, I am.
Updated : Shutting down “Jason Mumbles” is not because of whatever incidents that you can think of by reading this post. Although it was the cause, the biggest reason will be that I can’t pick myself up yet to blog. Even if I am to blog, posts written without heart and passion only results a soul-less blog.
A soul-less blog, what’s the point then? However, it should be the last thing I ever want to do for my blog. There will still be updates, provided I can produce something.
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February 22nd, 2007 03:34
You sound like a wreck here. Need a lending ear? I’m all ears…via email.
February 22nd, 2007 09:20
we’ll wait for a few days before you change your mind about closing down your blog :D
February 22nd, 2007 10:46
dude! what the heck happened?
February 22nd, 2007 12:16
Take care.
February 22nd, 2007 13:01
这时刻的你，可能在钻牛角尖。 把事情放大来看。。。
shutting down ur blog might not be a good idea.
talk to someone and release stress… i can always be the ear.
’scold’ me if u wan to :p
this time i will save the msn chat log :)
February 22nd, 2007 14:13
Calmed down. Think slowly. Analyze everything carefully. Look for options that you can do now. Think of what you wanna do and pick yourself up. Life still goes on. Friends can give a hand or an ear but in the end it stills come down to yourself. Be Strong. Have Faith. ;)
February 22nd, 2007 16:11
yeah.. think twice.. i can’t leave without Jason Mumbles lar…
February 22nd, 2007 17:39
find out the cause of it, not just shut it down for some other non-related reason.
revealed too much about ur work in your blog?
or too much about your family?
hmmmmmm, anything i can help?
February 22nd, 2007 20:55
dude..be a man! I know you can. Nasi sudah jadi bubur…tak guna crying over spilt milk. But take care of urself la..don’t sampai tak blog leh! owkay?? take care loads, hugs.
February 22nd, 2007 23:48
Don’t be like me :).
Once a blogger, always a blogger. Your itch will come back.
February 23rd, 2007 04:35
hmm…
loving someone is not ur fault.
someone not accepting ur love, not their fault also.
they got the right.
February 23rd, 2007 06:19
Vien : Thanks for the offer and support, really appreciate it!
Sewjin : Shutting down my blog is just a consideration, not yet a decision. Don’t worry.
Boss Stewie : You know me well enough to know whats going on.
Che-Cheh : I will.
Cely : I know you are always there when I need someone. Thanks for the offer and I definitely will let you know, if I ever need one.
Shinky : Its easier said than done. -sighs-
Yan : Which Yan are you? I never see your comment before. Don’t worry yet, it’s just a consideration, not a decision. It’s too early to say anything yet and shutting down “Jason Mumbles” is something that needs more than courage alone to do so.
Uncle Lee : Its more like personal reason and the reason that I mentioned in my post. I am still picking up the pieces and I will see how first. Thanks for the offer and support.
Blueapple : Thank you very much for all the help and support.
Narrowband : I will always be a blogger, but maybe on another blog? :)
MengZ : I know… But its more than just love, I think.
February 23rd, 2007 16:22
hey man, dun say i understand what u’r goin through then again feel free to pop me an email or smthg. cheers mate.
February 23rd, 2007 16:32
hang in there. i hope everything will be fine sooner or later. Cheers :)
February 23rd, 2007 22:35
Fame doesn’t pay most of the time…
But it’s good to know there’re many ppl who care out there.
If you need someone to talk to or listen to you, you know who to call.
I can give free opinions later, provided you want the offer :-)
Give it some time, things will be different and fine.
February 24th, 2007 12:05
AHHHH……!!!!!! dun close down ur blog!!!!! plz plz plz plz
I do understand there were something which cannot write in blog……. but dun do silly thing. believe and tahan urself…….the brightess day will arrive.
February 24th, 2007 23:48
Eiks! U not scaring us hor? Why the idea of closing down ur blog? Hope it’s really just a consideration and not a decison. Give urself a break and ‘come’ back again, okay?
February 25th, 2007 12:56
You know, I am not very good at reading between the lines, but I do hope that you get OUT of whatever you’re in. And I hope you’ll feel better soon.
Let me know if there’s anything I can do - though I know you have LOADS of friends :) Or if you want to come see my terrapins, OK? *hugs*
February 25th, 2007 19:12
JASON! DON’T BE IMPETUOUS! You don’t shut down your blog!!!! No!!! Things will get better although i know nothing about what you went through. But be positive! Be optimistic! believe in yourself!
Sooner or later you’ll want to start writing again. It’s a passion that never dies. It’s a way of expressing your thoughts! Maybe just go on hiatus. Don’t shut downn. See a lot of readers are gonna be so traumatized. @.@
February 26th, 2007 15:22
fuck la wei….it’s just some stupid ass feelings for some girl. how old are you…. don’t act like a kid la. only know how to bitch. get a life man.
February 26th, 2007 23:53
Klangboy : I will, if I ever need someone to listen to me. Thanks! Hope you take good care of yourself in Australia!
Jason Lim : Hopefully. It’s getting serious and suffering.
Allison : Thanks for the offer but I guess, I will just wait until I can’t take it alone anymore. Only then, I will have to seek an alternative.
Fattien : Don’t worry, it’s just a consideration. I have yet to make a decision. Blogging is very important to me, I will have to think a lot before I make any decision.
Tracy : I have yet to pick myself up to continue blogging. I think I have lost the passion for blogging gradually, and after being hit hard by some incidents, the situation become from bad to worse. I will see what I can do as shutting down my blog will and always be my last choice.
Pelf : There’s no hidden meaning or stories between the lines. Read and understand as what I have wrote instead. I am a simple and straight forward guy, so does my blog. :P But, still, thanks for the help and support. I may have loads of friends, but not many that I can truly count on. Or maybe, I am wrong.
Debbie : Haha! I too understand that it’s a passion that never dies as it will soon start burning again. But as for now, it’s as good as dead. Sighs. Don’t worry, girl. Shutting down my blog is the last thing I want to do but the future is still an unknown and I don’t think I can go through this quick enough before my readers start fleeing. Heh! Thanks, Debbie.
Sing Kin : If I do act like a kid, pardon me and let me do what I want, on my own blog. Do I sound like I am bitching? I am not bitching, but I am expressing what was in my thoughts and mind as I wrote the post. Nothing more than that. It’s the least I can do to pour something out of my heart and also to let my readers know what happened and whats going on in my mind. If you are here to be entertained in whatever form, sorry, I can’t do it now. It may just be some stupid feelings for some stupid girls, but it doesn’t change the fact that I am having a hard time, here and now. I’m sorry.
February 27th, 2007 12:26
*hugs*
February 28th, 2007 09:55
=.=? what happen to you dude?
March 1st, 2007 22:24
Yo Jason! howz it goin in Malacca dude???
see you soonnn! :)
March 1st, 2007 22:46
Jason, update update …..
March 2nd, 2007 23:59
Erizabesu : *hugs*
Ah Kwong : 一言难尽.
Shaz : Yo dude! Hope to see you soon too!
Ellone : You blind? :P