Weeping At 3AM
2:45:36AM, I received a SMS from her and I called.
She picked up the phone almost immediately but not a word was exchanged. 15 seconds of silence but it was like 15 years. She uttered a word and I unleashed my anger and dissapointment that I had for her. I said in a trembling voice and by the third sentence, tears were coming out of my eyes.
Out of sudden, I said, “You are like accompanying customers!” (Some thing like P.R. girls.)
I bet it was a little bit harsh on her, even for other girls. But, that was what in my mind at that time when I knew she was still the same, nothing has changed since last week when she told me she realized her mistake. It was exactly 1 week ago I told her about her behaviour and yet, she was repeating it today!
I could not stand it any more and I unleashed everything in the phone, with few drops of tears flowing down my cheeks. I hope you are NOT happy to see that. I was heart broken…
Please do not expect people to love you when you do not even bother to love yourself. Not to forget, your arrogrant attitude towards other people’s feelings!
P/S : Thanks to Licia Jie Jie for listening to my endless grumblings.
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April 10th, 2005 05:11
Jason …..wahhh…you doesn’t sound good.
Sigh* I really dunno wat to say …(as you know my attitude) ……….. Just hope that you’re feeling better now.
April 10th, 2005 05:24
Dunno why …..i also bad mood liao now ………
April 10th, 2005 14:48
y i don understand what u talking 1??
but what u said is true, always noe how to love urself be4 u want others to love u..hohoho…STRONGLY AGREE..
April 10th, 2005 15:45
Ok, so who is that girl that you are mentioning? I am confused Jason, out of a sudden. Is it Ah Nee ah. Haiyo, more confused already.
April 10th, 2005 15:54
Jason seems having lots of troubles with girls!!
April 10th, 2005 20:49
i agree with your last paragraph. don’t expect others to love AND respect you if you’re not capable of loving yourself.
a person should live this life with dignity.
fickle-mindedness and uncertanties (or allowing others to pressurzing you to do something) should be avoided.
haihz…
i don’t know
sorry i couldn’t be here for u,man.
April 10th, 2005 20:50
jason, i’m going offline, i want to wash Fiesta d’TV3 and then Apprentice.
for the moment though, pls be reminded to study for your coming exam.
i’ll see you later,pal.
tc.
April 10th, 2005 21:26
Carol : I felt a lot better after that, but got frowned again after chasing you around in blogsphere and we missed out each other. Refer to the previous post. :) Why suddenly bad mood? You haven’t tell me ler this afternoon.
Gah Yoong : Don’t understand? Good. :P Haha! Cause I also don’t know what am I writting. :P Hehe.
Mr. Kiasu : Yes, it is Ah Nee.
TNS : I think only with her. :P
Venus : Heh, you read my mind, don’t you? :) It’s alright, Ju. It’s alright. :) I will tell you more about it some other day, ok? Hah~! I am studying, well, I am trying to study.