This is just 5 slides out of 120+ pages for 3 chapters in EEN1046 Electronics III.

This is my answer sheet out of 5 A4 papers given to each student.

Do I need to say more?

Actually, I did draw 4 small graphs about low pass filter, high pass filter, band pass filter and band reject filter, plus some don’t-think-it-is-correct calculation. However, it was less than 1/2 of the page. I know I deserved scolding and should have studied more. There is nothing else I could say except study harder for this tormenting subject. May the force be with me.

P/S : There will be a follow up post ,something related to engineering field after I finish tomorrow’s papers - PEM2046 Engineering Mathematics IV.

I think I should live alone, stay alone, sleep alone, wake up alone, eat alone, drink alone, play alone, work alone, chat alone, write alone, talk alone, listen alone, watch movie alone, listen music alone, go to class alone, go back home alone, sit alone, stand alone, walk alone, run alone, drive alone, ride alone, gamble alone, think alone, feel alone, cry alone, laugh alone, smile alone, frown alone, blog alone, surf alone and everything all by myself, only me and myself, all alone.

I am one fucking lousy h.mate and r.mate, better still, I am one fucked up person. Whatever you going to say, tell me or call me, I shall admit everything and everything is all my fault. -smile-

P/S : This is not any joke nor vent post.

I am currently on study week. There are 2 mid term tests coming up on Monday and Tuesday. Both are not easy subjects and subjective questions. One is EEN1046 Electronics III and the other one is PEM2046 Engineering Mathematics IV. Therefore, although I do have something to blog, I shall keep it until Tuesday, so that I am able to concentrate on my studies and not blogging. To write one post, it takes me about 1 to 2 hours to do so. It is quite tiring and time consuming actually as I am a little bit of perfectionist.

Hope you guys have a nice weekend. I might post something short if I have the time. -smiles-

Regarding the previous post on “Do You Miss Me?“, there are so many people telling me those usual stuff that you could read it in the comments section. However, I was not sad about it instead I was very happy yesterday as there were a number of happy things that happened. The post is not really about the sad stuff I have written there though. Besides, not to mention that I spent another 2 hours with Mc D’ girl before this. I am on my move already, so there is nothing to worry about. I am sorry that I have somehow made my visitors around sad or pissed with my sad post, but thank you for your concern.

Recently, somebody mentioned that I am a little bit worked up with the traffic of my blog and nearly becoming obsessed with it. I have to admit that, no doubt. I have been checking my traffic every end of the day, just to see the details of the traffic of my blog. She said that it is very important to know the consequences you get from the comments and feedback after every posts, since there are regular visitors.

This strike me a question. Should I start to filter out what I should and what I should not post? Should I post something that might catches my regular visitors’ interest? Should I post something that is funny that might cheers up my regular visitors’ mood? Should I do this or should I do that?

However, after giving it some thinking while watching Hong Kong drama series on the television around 6PM, I remembered the biggest reason why I started to blog - to write out what I want to write and to make myself feel better after I write them out. I like to write, as writing is the strongest skills I have among all my socializing skills. I am not good at talking, hanging out, joking or doing any non-verbal communications, but I know I am able to convey my thoughts through writing. Alicia, owner of Lobaksoup was the one who inspired me to start my own blog. I always wanted to start my own blog, but I was shy in the very first place, thinking that I have nothing to write nor I could write as good as many bloggers out there. However, after reading Lobaksoup, I finally made my step and I joined the wonderful world of blogging.

Now, being obsessed with the traffic, I am sort of off track from my original intention of blogging. I am die trying to post something that could make my regular visitors to come back for more. But now, being reminded by that somebody, I think I should get on track again, back to the ground and to the reason of why I started blogging. I shall write what I want to write but not what people want to read. However, I shall try my very best to be a very happy person and minimize all the sad entries as much as possible, ok?

I am very happy currently. -whistling-

I missed you at this moment as I was writing this post. My mind and my heart was thinking about you, distracting myself and unable to concentrate doing the task on my hand. I kept looking at my mobile phone, looking forward to the “1 Message Recevied” sign and hoping it was from you. However, the phone has been laying down motionless since 09:58:30AM and after I sent you a message at 10:15:19AM. I waited until 1:30:27PM and pressed the magical number 5 on my keypad.

My phone showed “Dialing 012-3xxxxxx…” and I waited.

“Tut tut… Tut tut… Tut tut… Tut tut… Tut tut…”
“Mmh?”
“Ei, got take lunch or not?”
“Mum mum (Eating) now.”
“Mmh. Why didn’t reply me?”
“Har? You got send me anything?”
“This morning?”
“Oh, that one. I was doing something.”
“Mmh. Oklah.”
“Nothing liao?”
“Mmh.”
“Bye bye.”
“Bye bye.”
“-clicked- Tut tut tut…” (Thinking whether she was with that someone.)

-sighs-

I have been reading the e-mail that I have wrote to you yesterday over and over again. I am looking forward to hear a reply from you since last night during our conversations and SMS-es but not a single word was mentioned. It is alright, I am still waiting and tonight I shall try again.

I was thinking whether you know that I miss you most of the time. I used to SMS, call and tell you whenever I do, but not now anymore. Things have changed. You are not the one you used to be anymore. I have to control of myself since that day and it is suffering indeed.

Do you miss me?
No. :’-(

P/S : I am not sad or anything, do not worry. I am serious and I am very happy today!